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Friday, April 04, 2008 ( @ 12:45 )  Love is really something irritating, annoying, yet addictive. I might not be in the position to say this, but i guess i know how it feels to love someone. Last year, i fall for someone, whom i know for half a year. Somehow when i know him, he seems to have a stead at that time. Few months after we addressed each other as god-sis and god-bro, i fell for him. He isn't dashing, rich nor perfect. However, he attracts me to him in his own way, devoted to love, loyal to people, and the most attractive thing about him is his love to his ex-stead, as they broke off some time back in the period before i fall for him. ( and i didn't know that they broke up.) Weird isn't it? I admit i am a weido. Hahas. Well, no deny that i still love him now, though we broke off around half a year since last august. The strange thing about us is that during the one-and-half-a-month we stead, all we did was shop around, fetch me from school back to home,( though he lived at the east end of Singapore..), and the most intimate( whatever way you spell it.) thing we did was hugs. I mean friendly hugs. No kiss, no nothing. Not even holding hands. Just hugs. Like those you give to your friends. We did kiss. But it was after we broke up, around october when we next meet again. He came over to my house, as people who know me, knows that i can't get the hell of my house without that irritating mother of mine. He came over my house, but people, WE DID NOT DO ANYTHING ELSE. Some idoits ask me whether we had sex when he was at my house, which sounds like i am a bitch. ( the way they ask made me sound like one.. =x= ) Weird? After the break, we kiss, hug like a couple. But beofre? Nothing. Hahas. That's why after that, round february this year, he asked me if i would like to patch it up with him. I can honestly tell you. I WOULD LOVE TO. But that something that is restraining me, FEAR. I am scared. Afraid to face another time of "attack". What attack? Break-up. When he broke off with me the other time, i felt i am tearing apart. He isn't my first. But it felt worse than the first heartache i had receive long time ago. Because of that fear, i rejected him. You might ask, you do still like him, or maybe you should say love, then why now you are rejecting him, when he ask for a patch? I would answer you: What if we didn't last? What if like before we break up just after a month's stead? And the reason why he break with me the last time? I didn't had much time with him as i was preparing for my O levels. And now that poly is starting to get into my life. I know i will be very busy. I never complain that he doesn't have much time with me, due to NS. Cox i understand. But i don't feel that he does. Thus, i rejected him. Well, now. Even if he ask me again. I will still reject. One reason is because of the fear. Another? I don't know who am i to him. I don't know whether he does ever likes me. He never says, never shows. And that makes me insecure. And i REALLY HATE that feeling. Well. A long story indeed. And thanks for reading it. ^^ 0 comments |