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Wednesday, April 25, 2012 ( 像小夫妻的几天 ♥ @ 23:53 ) We were like newlyweds ♥ I have a new hobby hahah Lying down on Deardear's bed n look at my cute boyy styling his hair ^^ Ahduiiii Deardear's bed really too comfy le la I start to hate my own hahah Most comfy is can hug Deardear to slp though gt one night Deardear "slapped" me n "box" me =.= Im now so used to his loud snoring.. Im so used to look at the cute face of his n dozed off.. I love my special pillow which is Deardear's strong muscular arm n his scent ♥ It has become a habit to wake up by Deardear's sweet n gentle voice.. These few days super duper fun! We went swimming at Anchorvale CC n had McDonald's, We ordered Canadian Pizza for dinner, We watched HongKong drama n Movies like The Incredible Hulk, Iron Man, Iron Man 2, Thor n Captain America (though Captain America only watched half), We made home cooked dinners n suppers (I super love Deardear made de chocolate fondue!), We played games like '7-up', 'Name the words starting with the letter _' n '不能说 你我他' when we are on bus, train or walking along the streets, We played 'Bluff' using Deardear's phone n the actual dices (Deardear is lousy in this hehheh =P), We played '5-10-15' n I totally sucked at it la! I always lose de hmph! Not to forget Nat Ho's 'Unleashed', Gosh. Like oh my Gosh Deardear super like to dance n listen to this n the reason being: I dont like this song thus Deardear purposely keep singing n dancing to this song to irritate me. Argh! Hahah just realised I havent dance for Deardear yet Deardear dance his for me in a super duper ultra special way n errrr.... location? >.< Sunday was our monthsary n Deardear gave me a surprise heehee Deardear prepared a super sweet heart shaped bottle with lots of hearts inside ♥ Gosh.. I tried adjusting one n my fingers esp my thumb hurt like shit le.. To think Deardear made me 61 of them as we have been tgt for 61 days le.. My heart jiu pain.. =[ But Im really moved n touched by Deardear's efforts n thoughtfulness Tankyuu Deardear! I really love the monthsary pressie!! ♥ And Deardear even made me a ring with heart shape too!! Heehee Another surprise Deardear gave me: Piggypiggy ♥ Our 6th kid! Heehee Now I can bring Piggypiggy along with me to anywhere I go n when I miss Deardear wanna kiss him or hug him jiu can kiss Piggypiggy n hug Piggypiggy first Heehee Talking about Sunday, Mei is moving house on Sunday n I was supposed to help her But I kinda dragged too long then leave Deardear's house =\ Cannot blame me la.. A nice Sunday somemore me n Deardear de monthsary leh! Just kinda wanna lay in Deardear's arms even if do nothing also good hehheh So.. Sorry la Mei, didnt help out But Deardear n me gt come back n ask Mei if we can be of help, Mei declined our offer Lol. But Dad came nag me saying I didnt help Hey Dad, I did offer to help okays But Mei declined my offer n what can I do? Anyways, finally settled my own moving out matters Kaya pighead, really have to thank you umpteen times! Sorry tat I didnt help you pass stuff to Christina, it really slipped out of my mind n I really didnt meant it If you arent my buddy, I wouldnt have offered to help you run errand n all the other errands I did do it nice nice for you lor No need keep harp on it please. Well. So Im gonna move soon in two weeks' time! Moving into a nice condo n what's best is tat: Its my own world! As in no roommates! Woohoo~~ But Im so used to have Deardear around.. Then when yesterday move back n since Mei moved le n Xiaolei on night shift, I felt so lonely n the room like so spacious n empty.. Haizz.. So wish tat Deardear can be with me lor =\ The other day me n Deardear bought egg tarts from a shop specialized in selling egg tarts of different flavors (Erm. Forgot the name le =\), I chose the Cheese flavor n Deardear chose the Double Chocolate flavor The Cheese one is really nice but if they can improve the tart crust abit cuz it's kinda dry The Double Choc one is kinda disappointing cuz the taste abit too so-so n Choc tart crust is even more dry =| Oh ya! Almost miss out this! Me n Deardear finished one bottle of red wine through games hahah We also tried out Vodka with Sprite! Deardear dont like red wine n when he drinks it, he have tat cute expression la! Heehee Oh dear.. Im so loving you, Jagiya~ ♥ 0 comments Thursday, April 19, 2012 ( Forever n always ♥ @ 00:37 ) me n my poor time management again.. Im late by about 50mins.. as the original meetup time was 6.30pm But I reached at 7.20pm =\ I panicked like hell when Deardear said he gonna starve himself n skip dinner despite his hunger cuz Im late.. Worst was when he said if I dont reach by 7, he gonna skip breakfast tmr.. I fell otw way to Deardear's house n hurt my knee.. I would rather I skip meals for days or weeks, I also dont want my boyy to starve himself.. Deardear what you said is true.. 最痛的不是伤害自己或自己受到伤害, 而是看到自己最爱的人受到伤害..或是自己把最爱的人推入痛苦的深渊.. But Deardear is reeeally very scary when he is angry or when his devilish side comes out.. I will feel shivers down my spine.. n will feel myself trembling with fear.. But when Deardear saw my wound.. I strongly feel his love.. I just love the way he call me to go slp, cuz he knows I didnt had enough slp.. n couldnt slp well on my current bed.. Tankyuu Deardear for helping me rub my painful back.. but Deardear never help me rub my elbow.. Its still quite painful neh.. Shopping with Deardear is always enjoyable~ though its more of window shopping hahah =P Wanted to renew those three books but cant renew le haiz No choice so borrowed another new book by the name: Flourish And of cuz its a psychological related book again hahah Well, I can lose everything but my dream/ambition n Deardear ♥ We had our very first bubble tea: Comebuy Its really nice and the pearls are better than Koi But Im still a Koi fan hahah Im so craving for Koi's Hazelnut milk tea n Black tea Macchiato! I always wanted to try their Ice cream milk tea! Hmm.. Shall google for the Koi stores location then when save up money le, can go with Deardear to try out! Heehee~ Deardear is so cute when I was keeping my laundry heehee~ For that moment, I suddenly feel like we are 一对小夫妻 doing housechores tgt.. though only awhile.. ^^ I said goodbye to my two kids tonight.. The two bears.. a brown n a white from Ben.. Deardear.. Tankyuu for forgiving me and being so understanding to me.. I was really moved when Deardear told me tat he understand how difficult it was for me to part with the kids, cuz to me, all my softies are like my own kids.. And I always believed tat the softies have souls.. To know tat Deardear appreciate tat I made this choice.. the pain in my heart lessen so much.. A frustrating thing happened while I say goodbye the very last time to my kids.. Mei confronted the fucking landlady to ask for her deposit Seriously FUCK TAT BITCH Last night I left my laundry in the washing machine n forgot to get them out before I fell asleep When I went over the other rm to ask them nicely to turn on the main power for the air conditioning, that bloody bitch start nagging about what wastage of electricity blah blah blah HEY HELLO you said tat the rental you quote us is bloodily inclusive of PUB bill n internet connection okays! FYI, I have been always using my own internet connection n I have never tapped on your lousy internet connection before, not even once! Well, if she is not gonna return full amount of Mei's deposit on Sunday, Im so sorry but I shall apologise first, cuz I will make sure I make a big scene for her Since she wanna make things hard for me, I shall make her life bitter ^^ Anyways, tat apart. Deardear read my previous blog post and we chat about it I start bomb him with alot of things again But Deardear is still so sweet n understanding to me.. Gosh.. Deardear.. I was reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally moved by your words.. Sometimes I feel helpless, At times I felt hopeless, Its true I still feel homeless.. But I know theres always a place I call it home: Deardear's heart ♥ Deardear.. We shall work hard n build our own home! Heehee~ Neh Deardear.. Sorry tat I always pissed you off, But tankyuu for everything.. I love you, I need you.. my forever n always, Joseph Soong ♥ 0 comments Wednesday, April 18, 2012 ( 不能没有你 @ 00:36 ) 我能坚持下去吧.. 伤害自己最爱的人...比伤害自己.. 更痛.. 我已经没资格 去做很多事 突然觉得.. 失去的.. 比得到的.. 更多.. 但就算我会再次 失去自己 我也不能失去你.. Deardear.. I love you ♥ 0 comments Tuesday, April 10, 2012 ( 我的习惯 ♥ @ 02:00 ) But the start of the day sucks ttm seriously.. Fell aslp last night, crying too hard, thinking hard, did a reflection of the past week.. I admit I was selfish..but I honestly start doubting.. Doubtful of this r/s..my efforts..etc etc.. Maybe its my PMS mood or maybe not, but seriously I dont know 许许多多说不出的感触..好多思绪交错.. 只想着玩, 我错了 没有顾虑你的心情 你的感受, 我错了 对不起 Deardear.. Deardear.. I felt like dying when I heard you cried in the phone.. Deardear, 我发现.. 没有你在身边.. 就好象 jigsaw puzzle 少了一块 But.. 站在你身边.. 总觉得.. 自己好丑.. 我的自信超低.. 你总是好耀眼.. 又可爱 又帅.. Always so charming.. Deardear, you might not realise.. But there's always girls checking you out.. I always feel so proud of my guy.. Im so fortunate n lucky to have you.. 入得了厨房, 带出门超有面子 好想好想炫耀给所有的人 告诉他们 我的男朋友长得帅又可爱, 会做菜 样样都好厉害 好强 But his gf.. Haiz.. Super CMI Whenever we take pics.. You always complain about my cheeks.. Then I start to realise.. I need some weight loss.. Now.. lose too much weight lol And.. dislike eating? Though Deardear always tell me, Im attractive..pretty.. But of cuz.. only in your eyes Deardear ^^ Without makeup.. I dont dare to take solo pics.. And when taking pics with you, I just wish I have my makeup with me.. But Deardear once told me something really touching.. "我觉得我的Dear自然, 不化妆时, 最美" Kinda overslept and couldnt wake up on time to take bus or train to meet Deardear outside his camp.. Thus spent a bomb on cab..just hoping to be able to see my boyy asap.. But before I reach, Deardear's tone.. was really kinda harsh.. What's worse was.. His expression when he saw me.. I so wanted to smile brightly, cuz the guy I missed so much is finally.. physically standing next to me.. Not in my dreams.. But Deardear's face was black like charcoal.. I seriously dont wanna anyhow think.. cuz I know my boyy missed me hell lot too.. But his expression was like telling me, he wasnt happy to see me.. I know.. He was just pissed that I couldnt manage my time again.. And I spent money on something I shouldnt which is TAXI Well, I couldnt hold his hand any tighter I guess? We were like squeezing each other's hand.. Too afraid to lose each other.. Hugging my boyy is definitely something I love doing most.. Not the soft fluffy kids: Poohpooh, Pigpig nor Little Pigpig.. But thee real "Pooh" of mine ♥ Went McDonald's for breakfast.. And my stupid dearest Pighead called up from Taiwan lol Stupid Pighead spoil my 'mood' hahah But Im happy to hear from my dearest buddy =] Then when we go home.. Well.. Deardear really hurt me with his words.. " I f a bloody cb" I was really hurt to hear tat.. holding back tears.. It was meant to be a joke.. I guess? But.. this joke really hurt.. I accepted Deardear's apology though.. =] We went to Golden Mile Complex after tat, to check the rates for Genting with or without hotel accomadation Alamak.. Going Genting during the peak season is really ex neh! Then we went opposite to eat the mixed vege rice! Gosh its still so cheap and good! *craving for more ikan bilis* The grass jelly auntie still so talkative as ever hahah But thier grass jelly is nice! Hahahah I gave Deardear half of my rice n yet I still cant finish my rice lol Im just so 'anti-rice' Deardear finished his whole big plate of food though =0 We walked to Bugis, wanted to catch movie But damn emo cuz the cinema really cmi neh So we took bus to Suntec and walked to Marina Square Wanted to watch 'Titanic 3D', but really sad tat the showtimes are really little.. =\ Im glad tat we watched 'The Vow' though!! A great movie definitely worth watching! So wanna re-watched it again in Deardear's arms~ Heehee This movie is inspired by true story thus it made me think..if..if.. If one day *touch wood* If one day that happens to me n Deardear, what will we do.. how will we respond or react.. etc Think n think.. I start crying le =\ Deardear damn li hai la Ppl start crying, he jiu realise le! I think I caught a glimpse of my boyy wiping his tears(?) But its really a very very very good movie! My first movie with Deardear seating couple seats! Now I know why couples love couple seats le, cuz can cuddle in your boyy's arms is really sooooooo comfy I guess if the movie wasnt tat great, I would have fallen asleep le But I shall bring jacket the next time we go for movie! I was feeling super cold le, but when I touched my boyy's hands (!?) Gosh he was like freezing! Totally no temperature de la I was like warmer than him lor hahah I love something the guy told the gal in the movie.. 'I love you for who you are, not someone I want you to be' 超感动的.. T^T Suddenly.. I felt envy.. like super ultra envy for her to have found someone like him who loves her for someone she already is and accept her for who she was before, yet never wants her to be someone he wants.. This part I really cry damn hard.. hahah Then Deardear brought me MBS!! First time there! And gosh the scenery is reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally gorgeous! On the way there, Deardear told me 好甜蜜的话~ 电影里的台词.. My boyy said to me.. The level of 感动 was honestly quite low.. I felt moved.. and my boyy was really really sweet.. But I dont know why.. I believe when my boyy said those words, they were from the bottom of his heart.. I just felt.. abit hard for me to believe he can do it.. For my boyy to accept who I already am, impossible I guess? My bad habits esp time management is something my boyy have been nagging on me and I know it very well tat I should kick this bad habit.. And my fat cheeks..ugly face.. hahah.. Well.. We stayed for the water show at MBS and it was kinda of cool! Cuz it was nearer to the audience as compared to the water show we saw at Song of the Sea and I love the part where they had bubbles xD We walked to Lau Pat Sat for the show and its... GOOD FOOD TIME ♥ The satay I missed soooo much! Beef satay, Babat satay and Teh tarik! ♥ I soo wanna eat some more lor.. But damn ex la. T^T Overspent again haiz But sadly, the char kway teow and oyster omellete quite fail =\ Then it was time to go home again.. I just hate to part with my boyy.. =[ Ahduiiii~ Its now a habit for me to have my boyy with me.. And I dont wanna kick habit.. Deardear.. 谢谢你成为我的习惯 ♥ 0 comments Saturday, April 07, 2012 ( PMS PMS @ 06:30 ) Yawns.. Couldnt slp all night.. Dying from the cramps n pain from my back and headaches T^T Well.. Yesterday was really bad.. Heavy flow till I kinda giddy n sleepy And my PMS is like suuuuuuuuuuuuuper serious =.= Ahhduiiiiiiiii why am I a woman sia!! So ma fan la. Every month have to go through such torture Kinda vent my frustrations on random stuffs lol Gosh I WANNA BE A GUY LA! Anyways.. Deardear.. Im sorry nehs.. My second day of menses is always like tat de.. >.< I seriously hate it argh! Now I start thinking back why I acted tat way... Haiz.. I acted like some bimbo or nonsense lol Gosh... Just thinking back tat I acted that way, I wanna find a hole and hide -off for beauty slp- I LOVE YOU, JAGIYA ♥ 0 comments Friday, April 06, 2012 ( Fighting!! @ 01:30 ) Time is really slow.. Trying very hard to live every day to the fullest.. I also wanna think positively and count down the days in positive way but its really hard.. Haiz... I just miss my boyy too much.. 3 days more nehs... Fighting fighting fighting~~ ♥ 0 comments Thursday, April 05, 2012 ( Deardear ♥ @ 00:58 ) 但我只希望 你不要拿我跟她们相提并论 她们是她们, 我是我 对我来说, 你对我太重要 我只会对我在乎的人发脾气 我很需要你给的信任 Deardear, you might not have self confidence, you might not believe or trust me 100% I understand its human nature to doubt, even the person who is most dearest or impt to you But I just wanna gain your trust when I assure you I keep telling you that He wont be back Its just bcuz I wanna assure you and take away some of your insecurities, even its just 1% of it Im telling you again He is not gonna be back. He is just a part of my past and its a part I wanna forget To me, no one matters most now, other than you, Joseph Soong. No matter who is gonna confess to me or wanna patch back or want me back in their life, I seriously dont give a damn. I add different languages into our conversations, just to make it more fun n spice it up abit So I seriously dont understand why tease me or laugh at me only when Im speaking in a 'C' dialect slang? Deardear, maybe you should think about it. Is it that you have some 偏见 on the 'C' ppl in 'S'? Thats why you dont like it when Im speaking in their slang? (*Note: the Capital letters in the '_' refers to country name) Deardear, Im sorry that I was rude to your friends/buddies.. I apologise for tat and I owe them an apology. But I just dont like to argue or quarrel with you over insignificant little things. I speak in 'K', 'J' or 'C' dialect/language cuz I find it fun and interesting. I hate a portion of the 'C' ppl, but doesnt mean I hate all. I like the country and the languages or dialects they have. Its a culture and art to me. You are my source of happiness. I feel secured when Im with you, cuz I know no matter what happens, I have you protecting me. Deardear, you might not be physically next to me, but I know our hearts are linked. 我知道 当我在想你的时候, 你也在想我 Deardear, I only want you in my life. I have confidence that I wont have a change of heart. I see us in our future. I cherish our present. I have faith in our love. I believe in us. I only need you. I only love you And, I cant live without you, Joseph Soong ♥ 0 comments Tuesday, April 03, 2012 ( Fighting! @ 14:16 ) Later gonna go pray 外公 n 阿姨.. Finally able to slp soundly last night! No nightmare! Guess is really think too much in the day tat lead to the nightmare ba But when me n mei pray finish, I feel like Im lighter de feeling.. Heehee 阿公s, 阿嬷s, 外公 n 阿姨.. Please watch over me and Deardear ^^ After praying, me n mei went to Circuit Rd for dinner Passed by Pipit Rd, my old house and Circuit Rd, my nanny's old house n Dad's old house.. Memories flash back.. Days in CCPS.. My childhood times.. Suddenly feel Im old le =.= Anyways, the food is superb! (Tankyuu for the treat, Mei ^^) We had Wanton noodles, Kway Chap, Tauhu Goreng, Sugar Cane drinks n Dessert! Sumptous (Y) To my suprise, the auntie who used to sell fish soup (now selling kway chap) still rmbs me (of cuz my mum as well)! And the malay stall uncle also kinda recognise me hahahahahahah! But otw to busstop to catch bus 65, passed by a spooking bungalow which i rmb clearly is already abandoned during my childhood times n we are to avoid it, be it day or night Some shadow flash past at the corner of my eye. Gosh!! >w< So me n mei walk damn fast to the busstop but mei de stamina really bad la Short short de distance jiu complain tired lol Oh! I bought the buns I missed alot though! Circuit Rd Buns are really nice! Now eating them with milk~~ Heehee~ Last night is the first night Deardear have to stay in camp.. Haiz.. Gosh. Must think positive! Deardear, 6 days to go!! Fighting!!!!!!! ♥ And hor.. Deardear.. I'll never go back to Satan de! NEVER EVER!! Now in my eyes, only got my silly cutie boyy, Joseph Soong ♥ 0 comments Monday, April 02, 2012 ( Time, please freeze @ 23:58 ) Good food, nice people and most importantly, its with Deardear! Heehee~ Though im still kinda emo, I really enjoy playing with Jacelyn n Deardear's accompany ^^ Jacelyn is reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally super cute but Deardear cuter! I dont know is it I oversensitive or think too much, I sense tat when Im really too engrossed in playing with Jacelyn and neglected Deardear, Deardear seemed to be a little sad(?), emo(?) and kinda jealous of Jacelyn(?) Hahahahhah! When we were leaving Jacelyn's house for movie, Jacelyn suddenly hug Deardear's thigh.. My heart sank immediately.. Haiz.. Im always soft hearted to kids.. esp their cries.. Gosh I almost cry when Jacelyn dont want us to leave without her and wants us to bring her to her "wet wet" T^T Ahdui~ I almost forgot to mention! Im still emo when I pinched Deardear's cheek in front of Jacelyn and she hit my hand and shot me a "Why are you bullying my 舅舅?!" *draws circle in a corner* I suddenly become a villian who "bully" her 舅舅.. Haizzzzzzzzzzz But Jacelyn is now more familiar with me le.. after seeing me 4 times (if my memory didnt fail me) Hmmm.. me n my STM.. Oh! Me n Deardear went for our first movie!! Know each other so long and officially gt tgt for 1 month ++ le, then we watch our first movie hahah My boyy is a movie lover told me this xD " The Hunger Games", our first movie Well actually if I were to rate, I find this movie so-so only The story plot too predictable liao Though I quite like the part where the Game designer set forest fires to force Katnis to move away from the borders part Somehow.. Time flies when Im with Deardear.. Just wish tat time can stop or crawl or freeze when we are tgt neh.. I know its impossible lol Haiz... Im gonna miss him dearly.. 0 comments Sunday, April 01, 2012 ( 난 정말 행복입니다 ♥ @ 11:00 ) Greet me with "Are you high yesterday?" =.= WHERE GT PPL GREET PPL WITH THIS IN THE MORNING DE LA! *EMO* Thought will hear something simple like "Morning Dear ♥" Ahduiiii dont know what is in his brain Somemore keep ask me to reply his question lol But his sleeping face is reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally cute la And I keep use my hair to tickle his armpits when he's sleeping heehee~ Then he keep fidget wahahahah~ Anyways, he's just so super cute la But HAIZ I tried using simple Korean to praise him BUT he ask Poohpooh to smack me HMPH!! Well, Deardear didnt inform his mama abt the SOL Haiz.. Somehow I felt damn guilty.. I know its bcuz of the fucked up system thats why he kena punishment for nothing, but I felt tat if I didnt pop up tat Saturday night, Deardear would have gone for the guard duty on Sunday morning.. Thus from tat day I felt damn bad.. esp when I received that glance from Deardear's mama.. Haiz.. Deardear kena for 7days! A whole week *faints* Im gonna miss him till like dont know what le Although what Deardear say is true tat he can still sms me when he is free, but Deardear.. I dont know when I become so "sticky" de Just wanna stick to you everyday ma.. Hmmm.. Last night didnt really had a good slp.. Ultra super tired.. But didnt really slp well.. Aches and pain from all over the body + nightmare.. Yesh nightmare. I cant really remember clearly the details of the dream, but the bits n pieces I link up gave me a conclusion: 日有所思, 夜有所梦 阿公's wake.. Its something I forever cannot rmb clearly what happen But having to go through it again from day one to last day once again in my dream, its super torturing.. esp from a thrid party's view.. Gosh.. Wake up in cold sweat and tears flowing non stop.. Something I cannot comprehend till now.. I cant rmb much during the whole funeral yet in my dreams I seem to be able to rmb those I dont really rmb.. Aiya I dont know how to say la. Selective memory? Shall continue again tmr ba! Time to go for Jacelyn's birthday party!! xD 0 comments |