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Sunday, February 25, 2007 ( @ 12:19 ) I am going back to school le~~ Hooray~~~ Rejoice~~~ Short entry cox i need to go out for lunch le... Gome ne mina~ >.< Picys for you~~~~    0 comments Monday, February 19, 2007 ( @ 01:41 ) First, Happy New Year to all~~~~  I might ruin your beautiful day with this entry, so you are free to ignore this. ^.^  I know i am a hypocrite, i know i am selfish and i know i ruin you beautiful morning by telling you i am really damn depressed and need your encouragment. Forget it. I know that all are hypocrites and that definitely includes me. I am so damn tooting sorry and i will not trouble you anymore. I foolishly thought that you are my true friend and will always be there for me, when i need you... This is what you told me, but you didn't mean what you said. I knew it. I am so tooting sorry that i actually so damn silly to believe in your words. I am sorry, and i apologise. I am not refering to nyone in particular, but just a so-called "best friend" i had. I apologise and i am really sorry if i ruined your beatiful day with this topic. And very thank you for reading this entry. Sorry...  0 comments Monday, February 12, 2007 ( @ 01:29 )  Boring entry.... I realised i have learnt alot after the Os... And it helped me to counter problems in a more positive way... 0 comments Sunday, February 11, 2007 ( @ 09:06 )  This entry is about my decision, after my results. I decided to repeat my year, and take the O Levels this year again. I think it over and feel that this is the best way out, as retaking O Levels as a school candidate is much cheaper than a private candidate. As a school candidate, the cost of a subject in O Levels is at most $60, but as a provate candidate, the cost can be up to $100+ per subject. Well, that's all. Feeling better now, but still feels dissappointed... Study for so hard, and in the end, all i get is a flung. 0 comments Friday, February 09, 2007 ( @ 23:11 ) Parents expect you to do well, relatives giving you pressure by telling you to be a success, step-siblings asking you whether you are confident to be able to make it for the colleges, neighbours and friends telling you good luck, reminding you that you are a o level taker and you are taking your results, and that you are supposed to at least get almost the same grades like who and who... And now, you got 2 passes and you flung your O Levels and not some random test or mock exam or what... GCE O Levels... A national exam and releases the results right before the chinese lunar new year. What can i do... I bursted into tears when i see my results. No one was noticing that. No one. Not even the ones next to me. Why? Because they are happily telling everyone they know that they make it into where and where... No one notices me. Controling my tears and trying to comfort a girl next to me calling, telling that she make it and is bursting into tears of joy.. What about me?? Cry because i didn't make it and is comforting someone who has make it. Please laugh all you want. This is funny. I cried for ay least 15 minutes without anyone noticing me. And the most hilarious part of all is that the first one who had noticed me crying alone with no one around me comforting me or at the very, very, very least, be with me, is actually my junior who i didn't talk to much. Laugh out loud. This is true, believe me, you have my words. This is 100% true and with real, true facts and not some random comedies. Only after they finished their happy news then they come over trying to tell me it is okay to what and what... Laugh it loud and clear. I know you guys do care for me, but only after you have finish your very own business. And i understand. But i just feel that people around me are all hypocrites. Real true friends? What are those? Do i have them? I don't know.. Maybe i do have one. Thank you, mer. You have done alot for me, and i really do appreciate it. I know you are worried about me. I know. However, i feel the loneliness again, the loneliness that is my real, true friend, which has been along with me, since i was born.  0 comments Wednesday, February 07, 2007 ( @ 15:10 ) Whenever i see some lovey-dovey couples, i feel hurt in my heart... It is like there is something sharp poking my heart, and there is a sour feeling i can't descibe in my chest..... I thought that i could get over him very soon and gave myself a so-called deadline. However, tears still kiss my cheeks whenever i try to delete the messenges he sent to me... I am trying hard to turn myself back to normal, just like before.. And so, i made myself delete his messenges one by one everyday..... Although it still hurts, the feeling of hurt isn't that strong like before... The pain isn't that unbearable anymore.. And i have learnt to control my emotions, so that they won't overtake my mind... Gambatte~~ I will get better~~!! No worries~~!! >.<  0 comments ( @ 10:45 )  Let's search for and gather the shards of dreams, even if we are sad, we can probably still find them now. Changing the shape of the brightly turning tomorrow, even if we are sad, let's feel the sure present. It's simpler than it looks, but i can't tell it all. I'm always putting what i want to say away in my pocket. I can't say things with child-like plainess now, it's said that time settles it all, but without understanding, i believe in you 24 hours a day. I stared wide-eyed, even at common words. Time always laugh at its own swift feet. I don't want to be coddled by the dreams of this world's limits. Let's find a present we want to look for more than memories. If we don't stop, we can't start. If we worry, we can't move. A maiden's cheeky wish is to leave behind as it is. Love is everything, our era starts from here, like a bird cutting trough the sky, the image dancing in the sky begins to move. This is what i had chose to believe in, and i am not stopping myself to continue in my belief. Like an innocent child, i was hurt. Like a grown-up, i have learnt. Learning to believe in what i can, learning not to trust those i can't. Learnig to let go what i should, learning to not hold those i shouldn't. Learn to love is the toughest game in life, know to forget is the hardest part of the game. Someone told me love is trust, another tell me to love is to betray. Betray your soul and love your loved, but it doesn't tell it all. If a man knows not what harbor he seeks, any wind is the right wind. And by chance, and with fate, i was mistaken as your right wind. You swear by the moon in the sky, you'll be there by my side. You swear by the stars in the night, you'll be there protecting me. But i know that these promises are lies, and they are broken. Promises are meant to be broken, aren't i correct? I am like a freed bird soaring in the clouds, just waiting for the right cage to appear. I don't regret, but just feel hurt. I know it is a past, not a present, nor will it be the future. I give you my blessings and wish you happiness. Learning to forget.... carin. 0 comments Sunday, February 04, 2007 ( @ 12:28 ) And now, i still have another source of depression coming up... My O Levels' results are coming soon, my mind is racing like mad, with lots and lots of things, like whether i will pass it or will i be able to make it to the polys and stuff.. Haix... So sianx...  0 comments ( @ 01:25 ) I can't explain nor describe the pain... But still, it hurts... I thought i cried enough... Even it was just a word from him, tears welled up my eyes... Looking at his picture, i cried... When i chat with him online, my heart aches... It is killing me sometimes when i think of him... I wanted to forget him... But somehow i can't... And maybe i will just have to let time wash it away... Memories will still be there, the pain will still hurt but maybe the love will be gone.. The wound won't close but tears will stop... Hopefully i can get over him soon...  0 comments Saturday, February 03, 2007 ( @ 02:28 )  Recently, i am indulged in playimg online games~~ Sorry >.< So i didn't have time to update my blog, and that is somthing wrong wit the prev entry, so i republish it le ^.^ And there is something so upseting recently... I met this guy and we got together, but we broke up after being together for like only two or three days?! Then i find him rather cute though, and i put in my feelings... Hard to forget, harder to stop myself from missing him, i know my limits, so we restrained ourselves to be just friends.... Haix... When the sun rise tomorrow, will i smile and face it, or will i be in tears missing him? I understand that there is not point making your love stay by your side, when he doesn't love you at all, and he only wants to play around with you, but what can i do to stop my self from missing him? I can't just forget him in one night nor can i stop myself from missing him, but honestly, i don't feel like making myself forgeting him... Everytime i made myself to forget him, i feel pain in my heart, and that makes me thinking of him more.... Love is something you can't catch when there isn't any fate.... haix... picys for you...    0 comments |
