Dance like nobody's watching
The Dancer ♥

Name: Carin aka Piggy
Age: infinity
Stay: the End of Time
Birthday: 5 Jan'
About me: Read on to know more



Look Back ♥

Wedding bands!!!
Lucky day
Good food, Good times
谢谢你,我的幸福
Hanging out with the gals
Happy 3rd Month ♥
BUSYYYYYYYYYY
像小夫妻的几天 ♥
Forever n always ♥
不能没有你


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the Audiences ♥


All who loves her!! ♥


the Choreographers ♥

Designer: Elies
Base code:OHsaygoodbye
Image: Kristi

Thursday, November 04, 2010

( 累了 @ 15:19 )

我好累, 好累, 好累...
有时觉得活着.. 好象失去了意义...

我常说.. 自杀和自残是傻子才会去做的事..
但现在的我却能体会.. 当傻子.. 其实是种解脱的方式...
虽然只能得到短暂的平静.. 我却开始依赖这种平静...

常常在想.. 依赖着自残去得到平静的我.. 会不会.. 有一天.. 也会走上自杀的道路呢?

在朋友眼中的我, 或许是个坚强、活泼、开朗的人..
我曾经是那样的.. 吧?
是我忘了快乐的方法, 还是扭曲了幸福的定义呢?
我想..
应该是.. 我改变了....
是好的改变, 还是坏的改变?
我自己也不知道答案...

陪伴我的.. 就只有孤独和寂寞...
总认为自己和周边环境.. 就是有哪里.. 就有那么一点的 格格不入...

生活中的点点滴滴不再让我微笑,
而在哭泣后,
我才能缓缓入眠...

在〈〈天国的树里〉〉, 有段经典台词:
"如果脚会冰, 心就会是暖和的
但如果感觉不到脚是冰的,心会变得冰冷"

可是
不管割伤了手多少次,都不会觉得痛,
因为心在淌血...



我真的累了...



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